Archive for the ‘Just Me’ Category

Posted on March 7, 2010 - by Cate

Heartstrings

“Thank you for taking care of me mommy” — those words caused a rush of emotion so hard and so fast I could barely choke out a response — “I love you sweetheart,” I whispered. “I love you too,” she replied quietly. I could tell she was feeling better — I knew the drill and knew exactly how she felt, when the pain went away — relief. But those words in her little voice got to me, straight away and recalled countless booboo’s and tears of frustration by my little one. Except my little one was 17 and recovering from a migraine. She squeezed my hand and I was holding my little girl again in my thoughts. It was all I could do to resist the temptation of crawling into bed with her and wrap my arms around her and hold her close. She was getting ready for her semester finals, and exhausted, found herself grappling with a headache. Cut from the same cloth – again, I knew the drill. (more…)

Posted on February 14, 2010 - by Cate

Crossroads

I don’t know if this is true for most women, but I find myself, at the age of 48 (just turned) at a crossroads on several fronts. (more…)

Posted on January 12, 2010 - by Cate

Detox

I reviewed the detox plan for week One of the Whole Body Action Plan and discussed with family — everyone was on board — it’s not that long (4 days) and not that drastic (unlike some other “life changing” diet recommendations.) Essentially, you reduce down to one main meal per day, but move it up to the lunchtime slot instead of at dinner — I’m sure this helps burn calories more efficiently, during the day when you most need it.

Cut out the easy carbs and fats and try to focus on nutrition. So main meal will be a protein, some veg and a complex carb like whole wheat sobu noodles or quinoa. Fruits and nuts for snacks. Smoothies consist of fruits, veggies, nonfat yogurt. For soups (not cream based) I’ve chosen homemade chicken & rice soup, french onion soup, Italian Wedding soup, and butternut squash soup and tortilla soup.

We’re two days in and I feel no ill effects and have a little more energy (could just be psychological relief that this is do-able.) My husband though isn’t doing so well — portions. I came home last night to find out he had eaten my dinner as well as his own. He asked this morning, “what’s in the smoothie — anything of substance?” So his withdrawal is more acute than mine.

For those of you that might be participating, I’m one week behind the program as it’s being introduced and emailed out — took me a little longer to get on board and get everyone else on board as well. Temps outside will be near 30 today so I am walking! So far so good!

Posted on January 7, 2010 - by Cate

Whole Body Action Plan: Assessing Fitness

In the spirit of New Year resolutions and a desire to be a healthier me,  I’ve been considering the Whole Body Action Plan and decided I need to assess my fitness. To give you a sense of how avoidant I am on the topic of my own health and fitness, I haven’t stepped on a scale in about 15 years (with my eyes open). I was given a Wii Fit, per my request, for last Mother’s Day and haven’t used it. I’ve always been slightly overweight (20-ish pounds) and have done Atkins, South Beach etc. And while I can peel it off, I can’t keep it off. And I know we’ve all heard that before. (more…)

Posted on September 26, 2009 - by Cate

She’s Gone

She’s gone.

Just like that, 19 years in the making, and she’s off to college. The girl with the curl in the middle of her forehead, proclaiming “so big” with her arms stretched high. My pain is staggering. The anxiety, overwhelming.

I’m having a hard time comprehending what just happened. Despite filling out the countless forms and schlepping to several campuses, in the dead of winter no less, I’m still in denial.

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Posted on September 26, 2009 - by Cate

My Honey Pot

The doctor was kinda talking to herself, murmuring really. Checking her notes from my last annual violation.

“uh huh, mmm hmmm, a couple centimeters I think…”

My mind is elsewhere. I’m doing my deep breathing exercises and wondering if we can just get this over with. Now mind you my ass (which has reached an unflattering middle-aged flabbiness) is hanging out of an ugly hospital gown and over the edge of an examination table, sock covered feet in the stirrups, my eyes fixed firmly on the ceiling, while I try to concentrate on anything but the doctor’s usual … “you’re going to feel something cold and then some pressure …”, but wait a minute, did she mention measurements? The last time I was measured in my nether regions was 1991, cervix dilated to 10, just before I delivered Erica. What the hell?

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